Why do my girls need to grow up so fast so my 11 year old had a busy day

First i get a call she wants to join band instead or play Villon . I mean a text . then i get a call she lost a tooth and the tooth fairy needs to come . but my oldest which was with me get a text or many text about what happen to her today . She got her period . Oh no am so not ready . Why do little girls can not be little girls .. she handling it well but it always makes me sad . I wish this did not happen to girls until they are least 15 or 16 . 30 be good . lol
So my younger one remember 10 months only younger say see mom and me are the only one with out it , lol see i don't get one as i take a shot for my head aches Depo so i don't get one and no more head aches . I just want them to be kids .. I was hoping i had another 6 months or years for that matter until this day came . Always mades me sad .

How to teach my teen to grow up ..

I think that what i want to do . He did not do great this semester at college . and he work while home and blow his money well my words lol . instead of saving some while he short my thoughts . I just don't know how to help , teach or show him how to grow up . I feel he still wants to act like a 16 year old and now almost 20 year old .
He a great kid , kind , loving , no drugs . so what to do ?
Just a little sad , little frustrated and just lost ...

So christmas is down ..and done !

It was wonderful and i dont feel the let down i usually do and i am enjoying my week off or should say 9 days off . We decide to send our oldest dd to her hockey high school tournament by her self .it was 6+ hours each way for three days in a small town with nothing for girls to do . so we took the money we saved and change our ceiling to a "racetrack ceiling " and smooth which it was not and drive dh crazy and paint living room and hopeful kitchen but we will see if we get time . Poor dh working harder then he does when he at work .
Me i spent 1/2 today and yesterday shopping with three girls (two today ) drop oldest at school coach bus at 5:45am, this morning . wow these girls and shopping wear me out . And i have goal i been doing i want done this week each day and am working through the list so am happy with that . DC book keeping , Christmas stuff put away . declutter the kitchen . (these done ) now tomorrow work on dc curriculum room . (goal for tomorrow) plus take girls to a movie then pizza with a group of friends ! that the start of my week off . oh yah it only monday !!

Tree up Presents wrap

wrap about 40 presents today 10 dc . 5 to 6 each of my own children and my moms and a few others . I still need to write all the cards for and package gift cards and cash .
Tree up son home from college so he set it up and girls put ornaments on it . And he even took the girls to store to buy their new ornament my grandmother their great gma send them money to get a new one each year . One more day of shopping run to mall vs and bath and body run . Finish food shopping as snow coming in boohoo . Really it white enough out side you think ?
I got a dumb cold feeling blah stuff head in fog so much fun when i have so much i want to do .
Well that it for now i have many things to say but wont tonight .

well am still here

I have not felt like updating this week . Not sure if it the snow , cold ice or holiday but boy i could stay in bed or at least on my coach until April .Am not even that kind of person .

Ready For holiday nope . One more day shopping and then i be done i think .I bought the ham for eve dinner and now come up with all sides and something for Christmas day at BIL it is like a week away basically in my head anyway . I have not even started wrapping and i wrap for 4 kids even 4 gift a pc it alot lol .

smoking i did great for a week actual did not really smoke all weekend then i went back ahh so i need to get in mide set and just do it again . I have not gave up .. i will contine this fight .

money stressed well one new family started and 2nd should start new year and one on the 15th jan so that will help a tons once it all comes together . every time i think ok my finance roll something happen . Kids car need some work all because hum 16 year should not drive in winter lol no i think dh being to tough but she made some bad choice that cost us some money. nothing bad she well not sure what happen i think stuck on ice Monday morning on way to school on high way and drive might of died stalled and well she took a ride to school left car . which of course got towed before dh could get back to it with some one . Then he decide it was not running right after picking it from the tow yard so 200.00 lost pay , 135.00 tow 150.00 part and still we want to take it in for am sure another 200.00 . always something isn't .

Well crazy week end coming up actual start tomorrow basketball game , Friday basketball game Saturday softball and hockey game then sunday rest i hope . Oh yah remember i still need to finish my Christmas shopping . Then only 4 days of work then Christmas eve .

Son will be home tomorrow for winter break . kids still have school until Thursday i think all three girls do .

Wow did the year go . 2010 many blessing .

Well i have the Attitude

of who cares or could say something worst so i need to change my thinking . Had a great week end non smoke and now am back about 1/2 what i used to so it better but i think i need to change my Attitude . Ahh it hard anbd i want to and i dont . So torn . I can do it ...

Sunday already

well my anger comes and goes . smoking ok hopeful by new year i be compete done . am trying to follow the non smoking plan but i think quieting cold turkey would almost be easier . it no physical at all all mental ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. One thing at a time .

Ok one day down .

So father came home and will be recovery .
My fight today was the first day am not going to smoke . Well not really am follow the drug plan so i started the non smoking drug and i cut at least 1/2 the amount i smoke hopeful tomorrow i cut that in 1/2.I refuse to by more . I want to quick . It sad i can not decide the 1# reason to quiet . It sad isn't it sorry i feel guilty . My kids ,my heath . money 50 a week (good thing i don't drink hum )and have no life but my children ,smell , the stigma that goes with smoking . Ahh so many reason i just don't know which one will keep me from going back . Maybe me saying it out loud .

So what a week and it not over

My dad is ok he will recovery with the right meds . so thanks for your pray and thought but now i need them . My little bad habit i smoke and have smoked for hum 20 + years that a long time . Am praying with all my might for the straight and courage to save my self , my family and possible my dads life . Maybe if i quiet he will also . I watch my grandfather die from lung cancer and i watch my fil have a stroke and his never fulling recovery . And now my dad . Am already on boarder with my blood pressure . And worst i just hate everything about it . not sure what i hate worst to keep me from smoking . Am going to give this a big try . I tried last year but did not stick with it . i am just going to keep my self am quieting . Am quieting !

so i hate when you haveto be a grown up !

so am a great advocate for my children and i think i could possible for my husband but it hard when it your parents . My Father had a heart attack today and then a stint put in . He will be ok and will recovery but it hard thinking what could of been . I could of lost him today . It hard watching when one of your parents becomes weaker . As they always seem stronger .

I love to hate my job

So when i woke am was so thanksful for my job and top 5 reason why i love my job i didnot need to drive today . And then my dad had a heart acttach last night and now i hate my job . You just can leave and take off easy and early . I hate itI hate it ad more stress !

Well Enjoyed my 4days off

Enjoyed my wonderful Thanksgaving to wonder family meals with great family and people . We are very blessed to have great family .

I also which is here some picture of my four children . I was thinking i would not get any this year as son away at school . He as last year also but i had is grad picture to use for our christmas card . It was a sad thinking last year was my last family christmas card . i know the time is counted . Even if i dont make cards with pictures i still like to get a pitcure each year of the 4 .

Well am fighting a head ach for three days . I hope got goes away . busy

week filled with softball , basketball and hockey of course . Work and family. High note i thnk i finished Christmas shopping mostly . A few giftcards need to pick up and one store run and am good . started getting holiday deco up . I love the lights up .

Am Thankful For :

Am thankful i can yell at my 4 heath kids . (as they are alive and heath to be yelled at )
Iam thankful i can whiny about my husbands sock on floor (i have a husband and he doing well)
Iam thankful i can worry about my children driving (they have a car they heath smart and alive )
Am thankful i can call the morage company (i have a morage , a house and money to pay it )
Am thanks for the childcare child that makes me mad (as i have a job which i love )
Am thankful my mom lol bugs me when she does it and is not listening (i have a mom )
Am my dad tickes me off (because i called him this week and i have a dad )
so many things am thankful for and it a wonderful thing all these things make me made be am so grateful to have them all and many other blessing in my life .
Happy Thanksgiving

When you think things are going a long then !

Well i was feeling really down or stressed last week with money and today started feeling way better then i remember i had my son book to buy before Christmas or around then (maybe one a week be good ) then he tells me he wants meal plan hum no 1100 a semester i think that run oach , right now i give him 50.00 a week or should say anywhere to 40 to 60 depending if he comes home that week and needs 10.00 for ride to and from school . now i think 1110. is a lot for a semester of food really , i need to figure what i give him but that includes everything 200.00 a month for 3 months right so 600.00 to 1100+ .can sorry .Now in next fall maybe he can afford to but for now i am saying no . Need books instead . Also while we are on him he wants to take a call scuba diving really cool but hello i think extra huge cost so we will be talking about this one also . he need to pay which hum he was no money . Right now am praying he got grades to stay in next semester . i know nothing which what worry me if you know me . no control here .
lets go onto this oldest daughter . so she wants a north face jacket great right and am thinking i cannot get her one as to much money well i bought her one today for Christmas and then she comes in with a friends and say we going to areo they have the jackets you know i want but cheap like 17 in all color ahh . i said no wait . you need your money for the week-end , ahh i could of got her 4 for the price of the one i got her.
Well off to bed to dream of all the money that leaves my hand as fast it comes in .

Is the Week over yet

i know has not start but i dont feel like starting it .Not sure why not overly busy for us . nothing tomorrow night off in morning , interview in afternoon . then dinner and well nothing much then Tuesday hockey game ,Basketball practice and Wed work then off for four days . norther over busy a little softball and a hockey game. so not sure on the feeling . Iam not sure i like down time when most things i want are done . I need to do some Christmas shopping but weather was Sukey so i put that on hold .
ok that all am feeling .
oh update on my oldest Daughter out in Cali well she got to see all the site Hollywood ,board walk you name but little ball two games on Friday i guess they had a rain Storm . ops . who would of know . Her flight already delay until about 1:30am so let home they land in mn tonight and everyone get home safe and can sleep in on bed .

Almost Friday !

Well tonight my oldest Daughter 16 got on a plane to LAX Cali sunny Cali well not so sunny please change the weather we did not spend all this money for her to sit in a hotel I'll cry if she don't get to play ball . she's playing the top teams in the county . Now they are not they are the top team in MN and area around but as we live in MN . We can not compete with teams for Cali , FL, AZ GA etc. So lets cross she gets to play these tops teams they went out to see .It a honor she gets to play against these themes .
Lets pray and i have faith they will be ok and have a fun safe trip . I hate when i send her on these trips with out us .
Wel she excited so i hope they have a great trip .

I Feel Like Am Crushing

And Burning . Hopeful next week i feel better and calmer . I have this over whelming feeling things now working in my favor right now . Am just falling more behind . I pray for strength to do this all . And we all shall be taken care of .

Monday madness

why is it you all feel this Monday morning madness which it comes . It does come every week say time every week . Well i always feel like i have to play catch up and a million things have to be done before what ? Tuesday next Monday.. Well cleaning what didn't get done over week end . Bill to pay , shopping list , Work ready for week and this time of year Christmas is coming . so today i sweep floors , pay bills washing towels now . Work of course and finish preparing for the week . Oldest leave Thursday for Cali for week end and i know i have a few things to prepare her to go like a carry on suitcase so we only have to check her bat bag .

Friday final here !well almost a few hours ago

So husband is still gone until Sunday make a long week . but sadly some way easier ok i know should not say that out loud . hehe . Well with week end coming work tomorrow , volley game and bank , dinner and maybe a quick store run . Saturday hockey game , hit the stores and then two softball games and then Sunday finish anything i need to grab and two more softball game . crazy crazy ..
Went to oldest school for conference today 3.95+ she doing well but i think she over doing it . with her crazy hockey and softball schedule plus school , volunteer and of course social life . It is hard for her body to heal . I am proud and i know she working hard to do it all and do it all good .

Well another week all well .

Well am kind of little sick darn sinus infection and this nasal crap wont go away . Same here and there . Dealing with same teen crap . Busy busy dh still gone we made it 4 hockey games and 6 softball games. This week end coming once i get there pass basketball practice , softball practice conference and then start week end will volley ball game , the Saturday hockey game and 2 softball games and then two more on Sunday that my week end . I will try to get some cleaning and shopping of course.
On a proud mommy report oldest daughter has grade point ave 3.95 + that with Honor class with trig Honor's and Spanish 3 Honor plus other but this two are hardest for here . All playing softball and hockey . Amazing if you ask me . She having a great year . she a jr . Great kid i hope she stay on the right track .
Well better get off to bed with this crazy schedule this week .