mom , mama or mother

mom comes from the word mama or mother :
a woman exercising control, influence, or authority like that of a mother: to be a mother to someone.
the qualities characteristic of a mother, as maternal affection:
someone that gives rise to or exercises protecting care over something else;

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Girls and there attitude ! help

i am not sure the mood or attitude but it sucks ! ok i have three girls all different attitude , one our youngest thinks we can not tell her what to do ? really ? where did this come from .
my oldest well this is a mild case for her but everything short like we don't know what we are talking about or bothering her . that so lovely she 16 ahh
see my head spinning and then the middle daughter she just a smart A** and well has a combo of both . is not my house lovely of three darling daughters . so days i really don't want to talk to any of them . of course i do so i make it worst . hehe if we all live through the next 10 years and darling husband still around lol it will be amazing .
now i have to note i was a horrible teen and i have apologized many many time for this . so i know and i remember how bad i was. but something changed in children . i mean you hear these stories about kids cursing at parents , even hitting parents (that not here and i would have to knock some on their A**) anyone that knows me we dont spank but i go after someone and well my kids are not small little kids they are 9 ,10 and happy 16 . back to point of where did they ever get idea they could act and speak this way . it a little crazy to me .
Did we talk back when we where kids we must of but couldn't be as bad as today kids . we must of sound no out loud but she was not like my children . haha i know and sure they problem all turn out OK and i hope some day they come back and say am sorry for being a shit .
love being a mommy to 3 girl and one mellow boy
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Wednesday, April 28, 2010

When men clear do they do it to make me feel guilty ?

i am sure not but why do i feel guilty when he does . don't get me wrong not that he should not of course he should . 100 years ago when i worked outside the home of course we each did stuff to keep house clean etc but last 16 years i been home or working at home i feel and it seem him to all more me . i was tired last night so i didnot do after dinner dish which i hate dishes in my sink at all drives me crazy . so he did them before bed . i did cook that count !

sorry i cannot get signed out our group name even when signed into my own account ?

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Do you ever wonder why you have to walk behide your family and clean up

So so frustrating really even my husband bad at time , does things like 1/2 ass . am trying to get things done and they seem just to make a mess ! i guess nothing more needs to be said !

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

It Only Tuesday

wow am tired feel like i have so much today and just tired and it only Tuesday !

Sunday, April 18, 2010

I miss my kids !

problem worst yesterday as 3 of 4 where gone . i miss my son being so far away . i am worried i lose touch in some way . like we do when we grow up . i mean i know it natural kids grow up move on into there own life and lose some of the closeness as we have when they are living at home . But i miss him , i worry .
I remember being 18 moving 1800miles away from my mom . it was hard on here . she keep asking when i was coming home , hehe i never did well did for a a few months at 21 but came back here to mn. i am trying to think that many years ago to see not if but how much i missed her . i do remember missing her but never enough to move close to them again . Was it the home ? things change after i moved out she got remarried had my brother and i really did not like her husband ? i know i was welcome though so that not it ? or was it i just lose the mother daughter bond ? will this happen to my girls also .
as i think i posted my son most likely move back home this summer for another year at college but will stay home , go to school close to home . am ok with it , it not really what i want i want him to be move independent and learn to live on own.
It is amazing when your children are little and you cannot even think this day will come . just 10 yrs ago i though this day never would happen . i did not know how i feel . the pain and love for your children never seem to lessen amazing to me .

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

2 months ,4 months 2 years ,4 yrs 14 , 16 ,18 and

i have a good friend just have a baby and work with many moms of young child and i see this hard days . i remember having them but the mistakes i made then seem so small to the mistakes i can make now . i know there horrible things happen to child but am not talking about this . i am taking maybe i lost my portions or yelled when i shouldn't .i mean i don't miss the days of sleepless night or tempertams . i love raising kids i just wish i know i was doing it right . i don't need the smartest kid , the most poplar kid , i just a happy well adjusted child that can grow into adult with out making adult mistakes . or life changing mistakes .

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Sunday, April 11, 2010

I made it

so i made it she 16 and not turning back and my son 18 . when i think back it was hard when they where two and four , then hard when ten and eight , then hard now ! you hope you have tough them right from wrong and how to live in life and have a better life them you did or didn't . not all ,some happy the way they grow up but other want to do better .
My son seem to find friends and "girls " that need ! needy kind of messed up how do i protect him , how do i teach him not to be the "fixer" or caregiver ? i don't want to have in that role his whole life . i know he that kind of kid , hello want to be a cop (1/2) way there ! and works at animal shelter and wants to take in all the animals no one wants . i feel bad saying this out loud but don't be the one to take in all the people don't want . (OK not that bad ) but you know what i mean . please he can barley take care of him self .
My daughter 16 two more years of high school then off to college . great student , great athletic , has many friends and i sure hope she find a place in life .
Iam not sure how i feel about this .her good friend for years ,i was talking to her mom and she said her daughter now 16 also wanted to go on birth control said just in case ?! as 8 teens are prego in there home high school one they both know . both Hung out with her in her younger days middle school year . so what would you do ? these is something weighs on me as a parents and 16 once , or 17 or 18 etc . so what do i do ?what do i think ? i did not say a word (bad i know ) am sure i was a little shocked , on her respond to her daughter . i feel that was responsible of the teen and as a parent i feel horrible if my teen got prego and it is a preventable issue . now don't get me wrong we take open about waiting , the right person , school does to private you know and many other issue with our teens around sex .

Friday, April 9, 2010

Sweet 16 again Not !

so my oldest daughter 16 today . is 16 sweet i think it should be but if i remember it was a hard hard time inh my life . so i hope and pray it is sweet for my daughter . 16 yrs years ago i had her in about 5 minites 4:05 i was in hosptial . hear funny about it her when she came out and they said it was a girls i said no really ? we wanted a girls and both families wanted a girls it was the 5th grandson on one side and 3rd on other so we said no way it going to be a girls and everyone eanted a girl so bad . funny to come to know i have 3 girls now and a son ! 18,16,10 and 9

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

So i took a little vacation no not a real one

But time off work 4 days to spend with family before our crazy summer start it was nice . now my Baby daughter or should say my first daughter will be 16 this week . wow really not sure if i am ready for my kids to grow up . what i am i going to do about it. i need to give them their wings , teach them how to fly and then set them free am just not ready .but here where my mommy anxiety come into play and i worry if i did not do enough , teach them enough .
Here is something that you know you did right when our 18yr old comes to us and say i am glad you and Dad did not drink or are Alcoholic when i was growing up .Hes say it made it easy to wait and not just rush out and party and to think before drinking . As adiction runs in the family we have been open with our children exspecaily our son with compulsive behavior and behavior issues . so maybe some days you do something right !

Friday, April 2, 2010

ok i lost post from early this week but it was good

for me to get it out . i feel i have had a lose my best friend for my whole adulthood . gave up her children and decide to live in her addiction . i wanted to through-up and wanted to scream as i hate addict !
so back to me hehe ok big project it coming i can almost see an end but it still will take a few more weeks to go as i am using my trash can to use as a dumpster so only so much each week can go out . i do feel the need to do all my closet so that be next pick a closet and do one a week until all done . again need the trash cans but don't want to spend the money on Dumpster for now so slow. am getting excited tho i have let a lot go . i toss all 10 yr ago receipts and book keeping info . 15 yrs of business stuff life before 4 kids . crafts i am not getting back to until hum 10 more years . childcare stuff i had for 15 yrs and have not used in 10 . i did find some neat stuff but i toss most and feels good .
An my other big project well i feel off the wagon and i hope to get back on . stop taking all my pills boo . so i will try again and try to get heather .
Raising children more like raising daughters . do i have to say more . my worry always going and with girls i stress more i think not that i dont with my son . i am so proud of him and have anxity that something will happen isnt that bad .