Along week end so i final make it back here

i love watching my children . i would not rather be doing anything else but 26 hours of softball in two day no no just kidding not on the 26 hours but on complaint . it was enjoyable , hot, wet and exciting . my girls are so dedicated , supporting to each other .we are head to another week end of softball and out of town . some one told me today boy you need a "real" vacation and yes that be nice but for now are vacation is travel with our girls to play ball . no this is not for everyone but it our choice and they will only be little once .soon before we know it they be gone off to college and there own life .

Do you ever feel like your losing control of your life

our at least your children and what happen in your house .. Well i know am in control am the parent....... i got all that but everyone once in a while for a few minute i feel like i am looking at someone else life cause i know my kids would not act like that !

Friday always bring the same in the summer

for softball and more softball , hitting a busy week coming , we have around 10 games this week end and i think 6 during week and 5 more over 4th week out off town. i wonder why my house is never clean enough and we always running out of food and milk !
Fridays i try to get things in order for the week end like make sure all wash done , bathrooms clean and floors done to make week end easy . we also have a grad party we try to hit .

An other mother vent !! sorry

why does not anyone know how to pick up after them self , drop your sock , drop and leave you phone charger anywhere then except me to know where i put it when i picked it up as it was out during daycare . ahh
how about why can not any one put toilet paper on the roll.
am busy and hey kids your not preschooler anymore .enough .........
am just really busy last week and this so kids help ! ok i feel better ...

sunday always bring a sadness as my family time over

and it the start of the work week and craziness with work added in . As my week end are very busy and crazy but we spend it as family almost ever week end with the three girls .. We spend many hours every week end and week days watching our girls play ball . this time is short until they are grown and i would not ask for one of this day back . But then there Monday and am a mom to 8 other children 50 hours a week and my children are not just mine anymore as now am a mother to 10, 12 or 14 during the day . so some days brings a sadness . i really don't mine and i love my job and am very glad for my job and these other 8 or 10 kids and there families. But summer i love to have more time to spend with my our children . now am lucky i take two weeks off and even hire extra help to have the time to my self or for my children but there a price to pay for all this .
Looking at college for my oldest daughter wow am not ready i feel am still getting used to my son going to college this is his 2nd year starting in Aug but this week is private college week and have tours all week . i am going to try to hit a day or two of these school if i can work it out . but that time and money so we will see .
well off to bed it been a long week with my wonderful three daughter in Sioux fall for some ball .

My 100 post

Well that not why i came to post .i came to post as a parents why or when did children think it ok not to get the answer no ! really when we where told no did we act like our children or should say mine . where did it all go wrong . when did children think everything belongs to them or entitle to them ? yes we all know some adults like this i think with a little younger generation then me think that but i sure did not want to raise my kids that way ?
i think my kids are not spoiled but privileged in some way private school , comp sports , lot of parent involvement . i try to make sure they are not "spoiled " . like my middle child will ask if we go to store for a treat will if she ask then next time and this time answer no . i will by you a treat when i feel you get extra one or if think you need one . not just because you ask . not sure i am phasing that correctly but you get what i mean . by no mean my children have best clothes or toys . on other hand they have a lot . but we only buy for holiday birthday and holidays .
But the word No seems to be taken hard around her. is it only my spoiled children or just a learning process they have to learn .
Well we are going out of town for one of our daughter tourament for the week end so hope all well and not to many melt down from the three girls !

Labels Labels i hate Labels But

first i hate label children .. i hated my son being label and of course doctor where always changing it and adding other would say oh no it this not this . he had ever 3 letter dio you could think off .. ok he now almost 19 and i see issue still but he come so far and i am positive he will over come all . now to my middle daughter am at a lost . her behavior is so bad right now .i am at wits end . she on the "gifted side " but i hate that label or any . i am trying positive to curve her behavior in a positive light but she making it hard . and she pulls this card everyone hates me , you hate me ,why everyone hate me .my son did this and then you start to feel bad (well i do ) .
here how to descibe here

To her........
a touch is a blow
a sound is a noise
a misfortune is a tragedy
a joy is an Ecstasy
and failure a death
by pearl buck
a little into her feeling
to me i read it and it everything so big when it happen instead like most of us take it as life (she takes everything so personal ) even when say no ! the intense sensitivity is killing me here conbo with other issue am at a lost .
there so many issue i could touch on here another issue we have right now and been for a while she is so argumentative and manipulative (i just figure it out did not know she was being manipulative ) they usually called future layers so much she actual wants to go into law . not sure to cry or laugh here .
This list could go on and issue we have could go on more another day am sure . I pray every night for god to help me raise guide this child with out hurting her (i dont mean physical ) metally as i just don't always know the answer .
I promise there are so many positive things about her she is lucky to have this characteristic if she learn to live with them and use them correctly . if i don't kill her first ! just kidding
mostly i really chock it up to being a preteen testing the water here at mom the talking back but it so more intense with her . i mean she not the first or last child am raising so hello dd ...... then i worry like with my son his behavior would effect my other children behavior and am worried her behavior effect my youngest daughter .

This is a dear John letter so warning might want to stop reading now !

Dear youngest daughter please stop leaving your trash , clothes trail across the house . Stop sassy back and bring angry when you don't want to be talk to .
Dear middle daughter your not 16 or 21 your 10 stop pushing to grow up so fast and stop talking to us like you do no you can not shave , wear make up or any other these things . we think about cell as your going to middle school in fall.
Dear oldest daughter as you are driving now i except more responsibility and as a driver your still 16 and this is not just freedom .
Dear son if you don't work some kind of real job this summer i am going to make your life horrible at home and work your butt off here . also i except you to be taking care of your busy like setting up classes and stuff you need to take care of ..
Dear husband do i even start ?? just kidding but really a little help be real nice around here . This is nothing new or nothing you heard before still waiting for it to happen .. these towels each day don't wash them self or the dinner clean up oh wait how about the floors ?

Well all i can the bump worked out

first good news well all good and new chapter in our life . First oldest Daughter driving . Get off the road ! she a true Bondie and it is a little scary .... new rules now must apply driving does not freedom at the rogers ....
ok we say good by to my husband business and all it dept. a little sad and a little scents of faller am sure but other hand am feel good about it .... lastly my son applied to St cloud as a transfer student so hope all goes well . seems it will and am making him do most so we will see if i can stick to it .. on to my busy week end to come 12 plus softball games and wash that about it oh no a grad party and a softball end of school ball season party .. have a good week end all

Bump in the Road , Rain it pours why always

Every time i think going a long good something .something just happen ! i know shit happen but no it nothing to big all little beeps in life .that all i have to say tonight !