Ever feel like i can not breath or i am drained

drained , lost falling cannot keep up . this month is crazy why i don't know
here a quick list
confirmation
out of town three days a week (*last )
1st Communion
Halloween birthday party girls
fundraiser dinner
3 trainings
this is just example of my month just this week
was Randi birthday and dinner out , today Monday
conference 2 Tuesday
work book fair Thursday
softball party wed
home coming nik Friday (mean i need to get her there and back plus friends plus all that goes into going to home coming . making shirt , pants , hang ing with friends to do this and money
confirmation pictures and all that goes with clothes , party etc Saturday
then confirmation and party at my house then guess what i get to wake and start week over
yeah hello i work 50 hours a week and do all cleaning , cooking ,shopping etc aah
then it the next week
my kids wonder why i have to say no . just don't have that many hours in any day or energy .
who does i feel bad
don't get me wrong i would not change a thing just don't know how to keep up .


OK enough of that vent
how about shopping for dress clothes with a 15 yr old girls really i am not sure who worst guys or gals as i have one of each but she really needs dress clothes in her closet ? well we got a sweater and black pants that it so this does not work really for this week end when she need some . she can not wear pants under gown for confirmation but by the time i was done tonight i did not care if she wears basketball shorts ! and really she can no one will know or see but a cute little black shirt be cute but nope !

Randi is ten today wow she in 5Th grade and can not believe how she wants to grow up and how fast kids do . she very little small and no where ready for puberty which i am OK with . she wonders why some at her grade do and she not . well first she a good year or two behide other as she skipped a grade plus she just not ready . i know i wanted to grow up fast when i was a preteen and wish i did not ., i was not ready to grow up . why do we do that ?
well i am tired just need to get it all out and maybe i can think better tomorrow .