Where that parenting book you have when you kids are babies ?

i need oneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! i am struggling and when am struggling i start to 2nd guess my parenting and what we are teaching our children . i 2nd guess my value iam teaching my kids . i want them to be greatful and understand they are lucky for what they have . never to take it for granted . am i sure i am doing that ?nope! maybe just the age 19,16 and 10 they are now . My husband and i work both very hard for what we have and what we can do for our children . maybe i am wrong but sometimes as older they get i want them to know what i do Scarface for them . i mean i believe it my job to as am a parent and choice to have children but i think we go beyond what we have to do . ?maybe i am thinking wrong . my husband and i have gave up a lot for our children with private school and traveling sports . time and money come with both of these . i would not change a thing and mostly i believe we are raising great children but boy some days i like to see these great children in my home !!
maybe summer getting to me and i am ready to start new school year , or maybe i just see to much of my lovely four children . son will leave this sat or Sunday i mean as he has to work this week end and head to school for the first week back in college . oldest daughter my bright , smart beautiful 16 year old daughter will be a jr in high school . and the girls 10 well Dani 10 Wednesday . Randi is going into 6th grade middle school , new school new classes to channeling her, musical instrument and new faces of a whole new world , ps i hate middle school with first two it was rough . and we already having issue with her and her gifted behaviors coming out and having issue controlling them . or maybe the mature not there so we will see how many times we be at school . god help us ! little D 10 also going through something Major anger not sure how to help her or even sometime how to handle it . so hopeful we can have a pretty peaceful rest of summer .21 more days meaning hay 14 more work days before school get here and starts wow ! my job becomes easier once the children are all set in school .