I lost net for around 5 days . wow how out of touch i felt so weird . i did try to embrace it tho and see net not really good for the family as it take away from family time . we all could sit in different rooms and talk to other and not each other . so i try to use that time . oh yah you think i have a clean house but nope not at all i think it is messing then when we have computer working lol
count down son leaves in 6 days i will drop him off at college . well really not dropping but i will go up and help move him in and if want help him get settle . i hope i be able to leave and not cry 3 1/2 hour all the way home . you know some time my anxiety not always in check and i worry about dumb dumb things lol like will he get up for class , does he need a toaster , will he have enough money to live and pay for school . dumb dumb it will all work out . will he get up for class , will he do his home work ... crazy stuff cool
i was told i be ready for him to leave and i feeling i am like he driving me crazy with some stuff he doing , late hours hang-out with friends and girl friend, i trying to be understanding as his last days living down here full time . well i am sure i just looking for stuff to push him away and hopeful he grow and make good choose this is the real test on our parenting . scared the crap out of me .
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