I made it

so i made it she 16 and not turning back and my son 18 . when i think back it was hard when they where two and four , then hard when ten and eight , then hard now ! you hope you have tough them right from wrong and how to live in life and have a better life them you did or didn't . not all ,some happy the way they grow up but other want to do better .
My son seem to find friends and "girls " that need ! needy kind of messed up how do i protect him , how do i teach him not to be the "fixer" or caregiver ? i don't want to have in that role his whole life . i know he that kind of kid , hello want to be a cop (1/2) way there ! and works at animal shelter and wants to take in all the animals no one wants . i feel bad saying this out loud but don't be the one to take in all the people don't want . (OK not that bad ) but you know what i mean . please he can barley take care of him self .
My daughter 16 two more years of high school then off to college . great student , great athletic , has many friends and i sure hope she find a place in life .
Iam not sure how i feel about this .her good friend for years ,i was talking to her mom and she said her daughter now 16 also wanted to go on birth control said just in case ?! as 8 teens are prego in there home high school one they both know . both Hung out with her in her younger days middle school year . so what would you do ? these is something weighs on me as a parents and 16 once , or 17 or 18 etc . so what do i do ?what do i think ? i did not say a word (bad i know ) am sure i was a little shocked , on her respond to her daughter . i feel that was responsible of the teen and as a parent i feel horrible if my teen got prego and it is a preventable issue . now don't get me wrong we take open about waiting , the right person , school does to private you know and many other issue with our teens around sex .

Sweet 16 again Not !

so my oldest daughter 16 today . is 16 sweet i think it should be but if i remember it was a hard hard time inh my life . so i hope and pray it is sweet for my daughter . 16 yrs years ago i had her in about 5 minites 4:05 i was in hosptial . hear funny about it her when she came out and they said it was a girls i said no really ? we wanted a girls and both families wanted a girls it was the 5th grandson on one side and 3rd on other so we said no way it going to be a girls and everyone eanted a girl so bad . funny to come to know i have 3 girls now and a son ! 18,16,10 and 9

So i took a little vacation no not a real one

But time off work 4 days to spend with family before our crazy summer start it was nice . now my Baby daughter or should say my first daughter will be 16 this week . wow really not sure if i am ready for my kids to grow up . what i am i going to do about it. i need to give them their wings , teach them how to fly and then set them free am just not ready .but here where my mommy anxiety come into play and i worry if i did not do enough , teach them enough .
Here is something that you know you did right when our 18yr old comes to us and say i am glad you and Dad did not drink or are Alcoholic when i was growing up .Hes say it made it easy to wait and not just rush out and party and to think before drinking . As adiction runs in the family we have been open with our children exspecaily our son with compulsive behavior and behavior issues . so maybe some days you do something right !

ok i lost post from early this week but it was good

for me to get it out . i feel i have had a lose my best friend for my whole adulthood . gave up her children and decide to live in her addiction . i wanted to through-up and wanted to scream as i hate addict !
so back to me hehe ok big project it coming i can almost see an end but it still will take a few more weeks to go as i am using my trash can to use as a dumpster so only so much each week can go out . i do feel the need to do all my closet so that be next pick a closet and do one a week until all done . again need the trash cans but don't want to spend the money on Dumpster for now so slow. am getting excited tho i have let a lot go . i toss all 10 yr ago receipts and book keeping info . 15 yrs of business stuff life before 4 kids . crafts i am not getting back to until hum 10 more years . childcare stuff i had for 15 yrs and have not used in 10 . i did find some neat stuff but i toss most and feels good .
An my other big project well i feel off the wagon and i hope to get back on . stop taking all my pills boo . so i will try again and try to get heather .
Raising children more like raising daughters . do i have to say more . my worry always going and with girls i stress more i think not that i dont with my son . i am so proud of him and have anxity that something will happen isnt that bad .