My youngest asked ?

my dd 9 asked me what would you be doing now if you did not have child ? wow then she asked what happen if you only had one child ( that mean my only child would of been 18 and i have empty nest so to speak done being a mom 24/7 .
first let me stay if you don't know me personal i would have a huge family many kids even more then 4 if it was a different time ( and well i could truly afford more and still give them what i give them today ) and live the way we live i am pretty happy with my life . I also must say i truly believe things happen for reasons and i would not change anything because my self or my kids would not be who they are and my life would not be my life if it did not happen . But ever said she said this i have wondered a little and thought .
by the way none of my kids want to have 4 kids and one or two but no more and my child all have different ideas . like my son i can see getting married having a child or two very simply life . oldest dd makes me laugh she going to have one child later in life would never pay for private school and all we do . she say . middle daughter of course has it planned out having twins or two children boy and girls , both will go to private school , of course she going to be rich ! she say .
i think if i did not have kids my job would be different but i have to say i make ok money and i love my job so ok glad it happened . (i went to quit 10 yrs ago right before my middle was born then had her now still can not see leaving my job . so i am glad i had them one reason of course there many .
i really can not think what i be doing i mean i make jokes with them honesty tho i said i be working . i Carnot even think life with out my kids , i might be able to finish a book or do a craft project and well have a lot more money lol but again i would never change a thing..
i have made many mistakes as a mom but i hope my goodness shine through and they will see some day i make best i can and hope my best is good enough and they some day know being a parents not easy and they will do a little better then i did .

HOW DO MOM'S DO IT ALL !

i just seem never to have enough time to have a clean house , work , shopping , go to all kids event maybe even a little volunteering . and sleep hehe i just seem not to be able to get everything done i want to in a week . how do parents of more then one child work and do all that needs to be done . i am the solo shopping for all the food , clothes well everything . i would say i am the solo of everything but that a different subject lol . i make sure my kids only in one sport at a time so we don't over run that an under statement with three at home still . sometimes it over whelming on what all needs to be done and there left to do ?

i love my life

but boy never enought time in a day and i 2nd guess my self with my children . even when is is good for them . why do i feel guilty saying no to my children i always feel bad and 2nd guess my self ..
i know in my head they need to be told no ,
my two middle dd need to be very busy ,love to be busy if not they are not them self . oldest wants a friend sleep over but it been final week for her and had 4 hockey practice , 2 hockey games , 2 to 4 softball games and pitching this week . she needs some down time so i said no but i felt bad she has not seen this friend for a while , she does not have sleep over a lot she needs a social life ....
our oldest as he only son did not play sport like girls so i always felt bad when i tell him no (i do with all them ) but i gave in sometime even when i know i shouldn't .. dont get me wrong he a great kid , but we dont want to over indulge our children ? what is indulged children .

- permissive or kind: tending to be tolerant and generally allowing people to have what they want

with our oldest we worked hard giving him self skills to control behavior and impulses .

When you want more for your children then you had

If and four most i wanted my children to break the addiction cycle . yes i come from a line of addiction people, but i am talking in a smaller scent i think . just a better life , easier life ? not that my life was bad and my mom a great friend of mine and i love my dad dearly so i am close to my parents and my family and they mean the world to me ..
But when is to much , example we have chosen and a family desion to send our oldest to private high school . we have also family choose to let our children play traveling sports . do clinic , and other things that go with all these things . lots of money ,my oldest cost us to play school ball all year with out the traveling cost around the amount of 2500 a year then add around 3000. traveling cost plus equipment . so we figure around 6grand a year one one child . then add two more not that much yet .
OK back to wanting our children to have a better life so my middle daughter getting ready to go to middle school and she want to play instrument , now i was not allow to (i don't have any music talent by the way ) but either does this child of mine but i could not play one as my parents where not committed to me that way or had the money to spend on one . so do i let my child to try it . (i am going to check it out wed., at school night and we will see )
but my real thought and question is when does it stop , where the line . how far do we go to give to our children ?
i mean my child don't get everything they want , did not get everything on there Christmas list are not allowed to ask for things at store . so am i doing that line ..
why is parenting a line or isn't it ?